“Why are you cast down, O my soul? And why are you disquieted within me? Hope in God, for I shall yet praise Him for the help of His countenance.” Psalm 42:5
I have not felt qualified to post anything for the last several days. Who am I to think that I can offer encouragement to other moms when I can’t even get my own children to do what they are supposed to do? Who am I to think that I have anything worthwhile to say? Who am I to even think that I know anything at all about mothering?
Yes, I’ll admit to having somewhat of a pity party during the last few days. I have been discouraged at the apparent lack of growth and maturing in children who seem to have the same issues come up over and over again. Why do the same things have to be addressed time and time again as if for the first time?
Hmm. I think I see a similarity here. Does the Lord not have to address the same things over and over again in my life, too? Is the Lord ever discouraged about my lack of growth? I seem to have a problem learning the lessons that the Perfect Parent is trying to teach me, so maybe I need to not be quite so hard on my children when they don’t learn the lessons that this very imperfect mother is trying to teach them. Maybe instead of focusing on my discouragement with my children, I need to look inward to see what the Lord might be trying to teach me.
To start with, I find that I need to let go of my discouragement and put my hope in the Lord. The above verse is found three times in two chapters with almost the exact same wording. (It is also found in Psalm 42:11 and 43:5.) The Lord must have really thought it important to have included it so many times. You might think that He knew that there would be times when we would be discouraged and need to have our focus redirected to Him!
Secondly, since I believe that the Lord has put this desire to be an encouragement on my heart, I need to obey whether or not I feel qualified. Maybe it is that very lack of qualification that can be an encouragement to someone else. No one need feel that they can never measure up to me, because I certainly DON’T have it all together! I will just keep posting as the Lord gives me words, and pray that I don’t ever get to the point where I feel that I can do this without His help.
Has anyone else felt discouraged and unqualified as a mother lately? If the Lord has given you something to encourage you, please share it.